It’s been pretty hard. I feel like I have done anything right. Right now I don’t know what to feel anymore. I feel like I have lost everything. I don’t have anything to prove my self worth to myself, and now that things are dramatically different. I don’t know what to do with myself. maybe in a week it’ll get better, maybe in a couple of days, or hours, or minutes. but nothing is changing. I guess I didn’t change myself.